Stop this train.....

Today I am keenly aware of my lack of control over...well, everything. It's a bit disheartening to say the least. I'm usually the person who can juggle 10 things at a time, and doesn't need a dayminder (though I do LOVE to write in mine...list after list after..). I just usually have things handled. And even when I get harried, I can make myself look amazingly unruffled.
This bum hip thing has scratched that..I'm having trouble focusing, find myself wandering off, feeling useless and just generally needing reminders for even tiny things. I'm not sure how much of this is having 3 kids and 2 careers or how much of it is having that AND adding my health crisis to it. OR, maybe all that I could handle but add in my little 2 yr. old going in to have her adenoids and tonsils out tomorrow, my 6yr old spraining her foot last week, my 9mos old having a horrendous cold and I want to shout up to the sky, "pick on someone else please!!"

Right now-I can't carry my 9mos. old around, it's hard to help my 2yr. old go potty, I can't run my 6 year old to the pool for a dip. My 6 year old just learned to ride her bike w/out training wheels and I have to stand at the window to watch her b/c I can't go out and help. Also, I can't be left alone with the kids if they're napping unless I want to venture upstairs and stay there with them until someone who can carry the baby comes home..otherwise, I better find something to do up there for a while. I'm used to running up and down the stairs at least 15 times a day, so this lack of mobility is a major-Bummer!

On top of that, when I do move, my hip shudders, squeaks and basically scares me so badly I nearly scream each time, which my husband does not appreciate.

We will all be so happy when this surgery and recovery are over.

On the bright side, my husband is a teacher and he's now home for the summer, so the person I'm most likely waiting for to help me is him-and I really love having him around. We just celebrated 9 years of marriage yesterday, and I am so blessed.

Funny, I just read this post and it appears to be one long, rambling complaint with the words-"I am so blessed" at the end...STOP THIS TRAIN, I WANT TO GET OFF!!